Not Just An Ordinary Obsession.

The first time i ever walked into The Magic Kingdom park in Walt Disney World, i was 3 and half years old, and i can remember seeing Cinderella's Castle and that was it! i was in love, and i have been told by my mum plenty of times that i put both hands to my face and stared in amazement. Magic was REAL! ( Let me rephrase that, IT IS REAL)

Now, there will be ample opportunity to read a lot more about my fascination (and if you know me) darn right obsession with disney, down the line because it's more than likely it will come up again lol! but in this blog, i wanted to write about where it actually births from, because people always roll their eyes at me and my excitement and obsession with disney without actually understanding my actual reasons why! (Not that anybody has to ever ever ever explain why they love anything disney)

I spent two weeks in florida on my first trip with my family, and shortly after my return from the states, i was then rushed into hospital, fighting for my little life against Type 1 Diabetes.

While i was in hospital, i had a rough time i was moved from my local hospital to a more experienced one for diabetes. I was in serious condition and my parents had no idea wether or not i would pull through!

Now as a child, you have the most vivid imagination, right? Well, i sure did, so when i would have to be brave and let them stick me with lots of needles and take blood and pump me with medication, and while i was throwing up and asking everyday if i could go home; i would get asked to think of my favourite place, person or something i enjoyed the most, of course i would always think about the place i had not long come back from visiting- DISNEYWORLD.

The most magical, happiest, wonderful place on earth! The place where all my dreams came true, and i could be whatever i wanted to be. Where i didn't have to be sick, and stuck in hospital. where fireworks lit the sky, where you could eat off of the floors they were so clean and where the air down Mainstreet USA smelled of popcorn and candy floss. Thats where my mind would float the whole time i was in hospital. I would think about meeting Mickey Mouse, and kissing Minnie Mouse's nose. I would dream about that big blue castle where Cinderella lived, and how she got though the challenging time, but got what she deserved in the end, all because she was brave. I always wished that if i was good enough through my hard times, i could visit again, and that being in Disneyworld again would make me better, and cure me of anything!

So of course, i braved it out, (kicked and screamed a lot) but i made it through, and sure enough, i started to watch a whole load more disney films!

I found out about the gracefulness of sleeping beauty, and that it really only matters whats inside a person than outside in beauty and the beast, i found out about hospitality, kindness and being misunderstood from Quasimodo in The Hunchback of Notre Dame, i learnt about kindness and always believing in your dreams from Cinderella, and all about the true meaning of inner beauty and always being kind to the earth from Snow White.

I made sure i knew all about being a princess, and the more i watched, the more it helped me understand my illness, and how to always know i was individual and special. It helped heal my life.

In my own right, i was and still am a princess, and it takes much more than a pretty face to be one! princesses, are beautiful at heart, brave, strong willed and understanding too!

I have now been 9 times to Disneyworld, and have always stood at wishes and wished many wishes, i have always found myself back in front of that castle, when i most need it. At every stage of my life, i go back to the place where my belief in the world, human nature and magic really all began. I go back to the place where magic lives, to let my soul live over and over again, and i'll probably be doing it until the day i die- and even after that.

Disney world has been a place of spiritual and self growth and understanding for me, and i walk out of the gates different and evolved compared to when i walked in. Every firework that goes off in the sky, wether it be in Epcot, Hollywood studios or The Magic Kingdom, i know a piece of my heart ignites and flies with them!

Now at 22 years old, i have a greater understanding of myself, the world around me, and how to really appreciate the magic buried in life around us. When i watched finding Dory, i found myself asking vital questions in life, who am i? what am i on earth to do? when watching Pocahontas i learned how to be brave enough to stand with the truth and justice! I stood with Mulan when she stood for justice and equality! i stood with the Woody, Buzz and friends in Toy story when they had to stick together to do the right thing, for the sake of each other and Andy!

I watched as Elsa couldn't control her powers, just like i couldn't control my illness, but in loving herself and her sister she found it was her strength rather than her weakness- uncanny she knew how i felt.

And now, because of (Thats, right i said BECAUSE OF) Moanna, I found strength to cross the boarders of my own limitations and follow my calling, not to take any rubbish and to feel the fear and do it anyway, and for that i will be eternally grateful to her, and her beautiful,courageous and cultural story. My very spirit felt connected to her, and reinforced a beautiful relationship between me and mother earth.

Disneyworld, is not just an image of an imaginary world for me. It is a place, a feeling and a medicine, with the most healing qualities and the promise of better times ahead, it gives children and adults alike hope in their hearts, and hope for humanity. It makes us believe in ourselves and each other.

Above all, I know i'll never run out of wishes, they're shining deep down inside of me, and that my friends is where the magic lives.

Thank you For reading, and i would love to know if you guys have experienced anything like this or if you're obsession or fascination with Disney is based on anything, like my own experience that makes me emotionally invested.!!

Peace, Love & Light everyone.

ps: Always Let Your conscience be your guide.

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